Parents are people too

I've been through a great deal of things since my last post and many of them have occurred over the past 2 weeks if I must say but one thing I really need to address is the fact that I have come to the realization that parents are people too. I say this because society makes these notions that parents are perfect, and they do no wrong, they are suppose to be your role models and provide you the manual for life.

My parents on the other hand have been the complete opposite of this ideal of what a family should be like. And for many years I didn't understand why my parents were so different from what I saw that parents were suppose to be like. When in actuality all parents are like this. They are not perfect. They are people just like you and I. They lie, pass judgment, make poor choices, their selfish, live through their children, sometime uninvolved, emotionally unstable, financially unstable, mentally unstable etc, etc, etc.


That being said. I have horrible parents. Horrible, horrible parents- (magnificent maternal grandparents might I add). I have never been a bad child. I was a honor roll student my whole entire life. I indulged myself in grades and prided myself in things such as science fairs, cheerleading and band. When the rest of my peers were out partying, having sex and becoming teen mothers and high school drop outs, I was busy with my nose stuck in a book or trying to select which ivy league school I could get into. I was your average LAME NERD and I was proud of it. In my eyes, any parent would be ecstatic to have me as a child, but not my parents. Oh no! My father has completely disconnected himself from my life and blames it on everyone else except for his self. That is one man who is selfish and lying comes so naturally to him, I wish he would have been a lawyer instead. My mother on the other hand is such an emotional wreck and the biggest walking hypocrite I have ever seen in my life.

I could on and on about how they never came to any of events as a child. How they competed to buy my love, the criticism, the name calling, the lies, the promises blah blah blah but I stand here to say that they are people, normal people who have made, are making and will continue to make mistakes and not be perfect people or perfect parents and that is totally acceptable. The blessing about my life is that I am one of those children who act out when their home is in disarray. You know the kind, who always want to blame their parents for them being a murderer, or a rapist or a prostitute.

I am accepting my parents for they are and learning from this experience so my child/children won't have to suffer. Your childhood is a very critical moment in everyone lives' that basically defines who you are, what you will become, your values, how you think and your morals. And many people will turn out to be just like their parents and continue the horrible parenting cycle. The thing that concerns me most and that so many people are being brought in to a world where their home is a horrible place to be and by that I mean people can live in harmony when they are having sex together but when a child is brought into this world they hate each other and it effects the child. Also, people believe that they can keep being selfish, irresponsible, and immature after they have a child and this cycle must stop. It is becoming way too prevalent in todays society and it is only going to get worse.

At the end of the day, it is one thing to say that hey I can accept my parents for the countless mistakes they made and though they will argue me to the grave that they made a stable and loving environment for me, I believe otherwise and I believe that they many things I encountered as a child, has an enormous correlation of the problems I face now in my present day life. As a baby, you really have to come out of the womb with an armor of God, because the very people who are suppose to protect you from the world, may be the very people you need to be protected from.